We have been up to a lot lately. I had my first tests of the semester on Thursday, which had me stressed of course. I even went so far as to question why the heck I am going to school right now. Especially when it would be so much easier another time... and the fact that I can't even think about another baby right now, because I don't want to be sick and prego and working and going to school and taking care of my babies. :) Oh how I wish I could just stay home and cook and clean and do art projects all day with my girls and have babies and write in a journal and actually read the old testament all the way through and.... Well, you know. But even as I write this, I feel that inner strength. The kind that doesn't come from me. It comes from somewhere deaper.... It's a quality that is built into each of us and "kicks in" when we need it the most... I have struggled with the question of whether or not this is selfish... What do my girls have to give up? What do I give up? What could be different... But, as I study and learn, I am reminded that this is my path right now. It won't always be this way, but for now it is right. I am grateful for family that are so willing to help... You make it that much easier for me... that much better. I have been looking for ways to tell you how much your love means... There never seems to be enough in the words I could say. But I can tell you, my heart bursts a little at the support I feel from each of you. I love you.
And in the middle of tests, a really great hockey game, stool samples, and questioning my life path :), I was able to accomplish one goal I set. Do you remember? The skirt. Yess, I finished 3 skirts into the wee hours of the morning of the last day of September... Talk about procrastination. But I did it!! Although, I did change it a little. I heard somewhere that if you set goals that you realize you cannot accomplish, that doesn't mean you failed. Just re-evaluate those goals and make them into something attainable. So that is what I did. Instead of making the cute skirts from sewing in no man's land, I made whirly skirts from danamadeit.com. I am just excited I did them. They really are nothing special, but it got my creative juices flowing again, and that is all that counts. Here they are:
The one with the pink flower is Lily's and the yellow one is Lexi's. I still want to sew a pretty button onto the center of the flower...
And here is my version... Cute. Atleast I think so. :)
PS> Not to brag or anything (ha!) but I got my first test mark back today and I scored 94%. :)